My own.

Yep. I think about you a LOT. even when we argue, I still think about you. I think about you everyday…maybe not every second/minute…but I know for sure you’re on my mind a lot.

I like The weekend’s songs…and Unsher’s Climax. lol. Yea

I wonder why we’re still trying to hold on to something we both know is not gon work. Im kind of conflicted whether we should just stop NOW or just ‘see what happens’ …but either way, its gonna hurt us both. SO IDK.

we know that things are starting to change now. Maybe its cos we haven’t seen each other for a while or maybe our feelings aren’t that strong as they used to be. I know this is my fault again, like always.

Its my last week of school, and Im pretty excited!! I got my year book today too, and seeing myself on the first page of senior’s section made me feel really proud of myself. Ive tried to challenge myself many times to prove something to myself and my parents, and most of the times…I don’t feel very worth it. But today, I feel real proud, and to finally have this feeling makes me so happy! 

I feel different. I do feel like things are starting to change. IDK if its a good thing tho. OR maybe, Im just overthinking.

hey dont be jealous, k?

BUT. I saw a cute guy on tumblr. but when I went to viist his blog….I realized he likes guys too:/ and his bf is cute too. whyyyy???!!!:(

⁴ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it isnot easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

⁸Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

-1 Corinthians 13:4-8 

This quote will be my guide. So for now, I know its not the time yet.

Im crushing on this one guy I saw on facebook. Well, he is a facebook friend of my friend. It all started when I was checking my facebook  and I saw my friend liked his status (he posted a picture of how he asked this one girl to prom). It was cute, so I started looking at his pictures…then baamm, he’s a cutie. hella good looking guy-_- he kinda has this Taylor Lautner look (and body!) and Im pretty sure he’s popular cos he dances too. AND, he lives in Temecula.lol.

DAYM. Im like infatuated with this guy, but then again….this is wrong. I know this is just a “crush” but still.

I kinda miss the old me.

Ive been crying too much lately:/ Can I be content before my high school ends? please?

This sucks. I thought UCSD has Nursing program, but I guess not. SO IDK if Im still going to Palomar since the main reason why I planned to go there is its UCSD’s sister school.

Im jealous of….

tall, talented, athletic and intelligent ladies.

 rich people.

 people that are going straight to a four year university.

 families that treat each other like best friends.

 kids that can do basically whatever they want cos theyre parents let them.

people that can hang out with their friends everyday.

people who are content with their lives.

people who have strong faith.

Its sad how Im being not appreciative with my life:/

Im really confused with this one guy. I’ve asked other people (that have met him) if they think he likes me, and all of them said yes…but IDK. I think he’s just really friendly and that the only reason he hangs out with me is cos Im the only one he can really chill with when he visits Riverside…but there are times when I think that he does. He doesnt text me much, but everytime we hang out, he always texts me goodnight.  and oh, I think he knows that I like someone already..so idk.I know I shouldnt really worry about this, but I am. Plus, I feel like everyone who sees us thinks we have a “thing”, even her mom. She wanted him to introduce me to her-_-